Qtr Life Crisis.

Soaking in my final sunset as a 24y.o

For the past 2 weeks, I have actually been dreading my birthday. It's the first time ever that I feel this way about the coming of age.

I don't know what it is about the age of 25. The big Qtr Life Crisis that everyone tells you you will undoubtedly have, did unfortunately, hit me.

It shook me the hardest last weekend. I couldn't sleep at all and the whole night, I kept on thinking about what I've achieved in my life over the 25yrs. Sure I may look like I have achieved a lot from society's point of view, but to me, deep down, I was still unsatisfied. I was disappointed of some life goals that I had placed for myself during my early 20s of which now, fast forwarding 5yrs, I had failed to achieve. Secondly, I allowed fear to take over. I was petrified of the future unknown. Frozen at the thought of walking the journey blindly and being absolutely clueless as to the right path to take.

However, I praise God that this week, it has been a journey of overcoming this fear. God Himself have done some major surgery to my heart by reassuring me of His faithfulness over my life. What's more, words can not describe just how much I thank Him for placing so many dear friends of mine around me to speak the right words, at the right time...

Catching up with Ed tonight has been such a blessing in deed. His words of encouragement really made an impact. 'Vicky, the journey of life is like driving to Sydney. Rather than trying to see Sydney, you only need to worry about the 20metres in front of you which are the roadsigns as these will eventually get you to your destination. That really spoke volume to me! (thankiu Ed! xoxo)

So as I wake up tomorrow as an official 25y.o, I will embrace life soaking in every minute of it and most importantly, I will be excited about what God has in store for me.
After all, I know I only have one shot at life, might as well live it rather than drowning over it.

p/s As of tomorrow, I will no longer have to pay extra fees when I rent a car PLUS I will have my own Private Insurance Cover! Yepee! An independent adult! scary but exciting!